spring clean

 

I like considering how when we are extremely busy we are forced to prioritize the things in our daily life.  Sleep is something that ranks high on my list and I am always amazed by and jealous of people who only need a minimum amount of sleep and can still function at their best.  Without sleep I feel drained and overall sensitized to trivial things.  I have been photographing my bed in the morning when I wake up to see if there is something to be revealed in the patterns my body creates within the sheets at night, night after night…hopefully this work will be featured in a show coming up during a university wide show @ Parsons in may.  I am imagining long strips of these images, revealing just how unique each night of sleep can be.

viewing

sometimes you just need time to look at things…time and space for viewing.  lately i feel like i am too close to everything and i need the space to take a step back and look.  look at what im doing and try to assess my own progress.  i recognize that i need my images to be satisfying visually for me.  and above all FOR me.  but of course, to connect with another viewer through this personification into images is the ideal.

touching

i dont know where this is going…but i am attempting to push my work to a higher yet more intimate space.  i believe that there is a psychology in the way we dress ourselves as well as our space.  and that clothing is a means of armor, as protection and as a way of inducing bravery.  i have things that i desire in my life and i feel that looking at my clothes, the most intimate of pieces, is a way of revealing these desires in all their weighty confusion…

space

i want to be a dream architect.

freeandaway

governor’s island, ny.

red

this week im truly feeling the “so over” state of mind…school has started for the summer and my lack of motivation, though honestly more of a lack of desire, is daunting.  we get studios for the summer which is a huge plus and something ive been looking forward to, but i havent even been back in new york a week and the people surrounding me have already proved exhausting once again.  what i really feel is that i need to make a change in myself, within myself, to be able to overcome the things that i find dissatisfying in my current conditions.  i am in a constant mental conversation with myself about how i could handle certain situations differently, not for those other people, but for myself…to make my own life happier and more authentic.  i often let new york take too much of myself away from me, when i should be enriching my sense of self in a place that is magically diverse.  my mother always celebrated my ability for patience but i fault myself for only having patience for certain people/situations.  i am determined to find the patient, elegant, compassionate me.

bubbles

the joy of bubbles!

the joy of home.

the joy of being outside in the green green grass.

the feeling of finding myself in the places behind me.

daily

everyday i ride the bus, pretty much everyday anyways.  while most days are pretty average, there can be some pretty entertaining occurrences commuting around the city.  i had a moment the other day, arguing with the driver that i was on the right bus, as designated by the lighted sign on the outside of the bus, but he was ‘positive’ it was a different bus, the driver mind you, which i realized as he drove past my avenue.  so he stops and most of the people on the bus get off, because we all thought it was the one that it said it was (this was at about 1 am).  so i huff off down the avenue to walk the 11 blocks home with all my crap from school and about halfway there the bus driver drives up and motions for me to get back on the bus.  in my stubborn frustration, i shake my head, which i immediately regret, and continue to walk home.  all i have to say is, i was right! but i still ended up walking…

inside

working on my artist statement for my current work…

As we become absorbed in the movement through the spaces that construct our daily lives, we forget the intricate and ordered spaces that are buried under the inevitable residue of our day-to-day passage.
To find the order, to remove the clutter, is to reveal the frame of daily life, to expose the shell within the system, this will create a sense of calm and control.  “We live in space…” as Georges Perec exclaims in his text Species of Spaces, and space surrounds us infinitely.  I desire to inhabit more of those spaces, searching for the essence, the how and the why.

this image is unfinished…i can’t quite put my finger on how it should be…

complete

In View by Rachael Stollar | Make Your Own Book

i just finished putting together this book with my MFA photography class.  it represents each of the 11 people in our class through a set of images and conversations.  can’t wait to see it printed!